S U N S H I N E . V E L V E T .

Photos

2011-12-20T12:20:00.002+08:00

Here's a picture of the Red Velvet Cupcakes I promised to upload!!

Red Velvet Cupcakes

Don't be fooled by the plain looking cupcakes, you'll have to sink your teeth in to judge!

Other than Red Velvet Cupcakes, my sister and I did some candies, they're known as Bom Boms. Unfortunately, they did not turn out to be as round as they should have, but the texture and sweetness were just right!

Bom Boms

Lastly, I would like to end this post with a picture of my naughty girl!! PhiPhi's greeting all you readers with a steamy look!

Xoxo,
Alexis ♥

Easy - Buttermilk Blueberry Muffins

2011-12-19T12:59:00.000+08:00

Howdy!!

Just the other afternoon, I decided to make a trip down to Sher's place to have some good old bonding time!! Too bad Huimin is over in HK and couldn't join us for the wonderful baking experience. If you guys haven't knew about Sher and Huimin, we were from the same primary school as well as secondary school. Our friendship has been on-going for 13 years, and without a doubt, I believe it will still grow stronger!! ^^\/.

So we baked Blueberry Muffins, and gosh...... they turned out wonderfully delicious!! You've got to try this simple yet fulfilling recipe!!! The ingredients are widely available at most of the local supermarkets, I'm pretty sure all of you will have a great time basking through this classic recipe. Quick and simple to follow!

Can you see how nicely cracked the muffins are!?!?

MAI TU LIAO!! TRY IT NOW!! The recipe is just below!!

Buttermilk Blueberry Muffins

You'll need:

140g Butter, Softened
140g Caster Sugar
2 Eggs (60g with shells)
4 tbsp Buttermilk
175g Self-raising Flour
115g Blueberries (Quantity may vary according to your liking)
Icing Sugar, for dusting

Method

Preheat oven @ 175 deg celsius

Mix butter till smooth, add in caster sugar and beat till light and fluffy.
Add in eggs, one at a time/beat them together and split into two additions. (DO NOT OVER-MIX)
Stir in buttermilk.
Sift flour into the liquid mixture and start using the spatula to fold them together.
When the dry and liquid ingredients have nicely incorporated, gently fold in half portion of the blueberries.
Spoon batter into muffin cups till 3/4 full. Scatter the rest of the blueberries over.
Bake for 25 minutes @ 175 deg celsius.

Tips: If you don't want your muffin's peak to crack too much, shift them to the lower rack when they have reached your desired state, BUT!!! remember while you're shifting them, avoid having to much movements e.g. shaking, hitting against racks etc. Try to keep them as still as you can. Too much movements might cause the uncooked batter to sink, thus your muffin would not have a beautiful peak!

Nonetheless, I wish you guys GOODLUCK with trying out this simple and easy recipe!

XOXO,

Alexis ♥

Red Velvet Cupcakes

2011-11-23T14:46:00.001+08:00

Hi there!! I hope everybody is doing good!

Christmas is approaching, therefore, I was thinking of baking some cupcakes to bring myself closer to a more heart-warming Christmas spirit! I saw this recipe from Joy of Baking last week and had the sudden urge to bake it so badly!! Through this recipe I learnt about the importance about the baking soda and vinegar mixture, how it makes your cupcakes light and fluffy! Nonetheless, you should not over mix or beat the batter too long, and the temperature and timing is also another crucial factor to produce a satisfying result. There is a much more better looking photo but it has not been sent me yet, therefore, i decided to go ahead to post my draft without waiting for the photos. If there's a chance, I'll post the photos up for you guys soon!! Meanwhile enjoy baking!!

Makes 12 cupcakes.

Red Velvet Cupcakes:

1 1/4 cups (125g) Cake flour, sifted
1/4 tsp Baking powder
1/4 tsp Salt
1 tbsp (10g) Reg unsweetened cocoa powder
1/4 (57g) Unsalted butter @Rm temp
3/4 cups (150g) Granulated white sugar
1 Large egg (60g with shell)
1/2 tsp Pure vanilla extract
1/2 cup (120ml) Buttermilk
1 tbsp Liquid red food coloring
1/2 tsp White distilled vinegar
1/2 tsp Baking soda

Cream Cheese Frosting:

8 ounces (227g) Cream cheese @ Rm temp
1/2 tsp Pure vanilla extract
1/2 cup (60g) Icing sugar, sifted
2/3 cup (160ml) Cold heavy whipping cream (35-40% butterfat content)

Cupcakes:

Preheat oven to 175C (350F) andline 12 muffin tins with paper cupcake liners.
In a large bowl whisk or sift together the flour,baking powder, salt, and cocoa powder.
In the bowl ofyour electricmixer, or with a hand mixer, beat the butter until soft (about 1-2 minutes).
Add the sugarand beat until light and fluffy (about 2-3 minutes). Add the egg and beat untilincorporated. Scrape down the sides of the bowl.Add the vanilla extract and beat until combined.
In a measuring cupwhisk the buttermilk with the red food coloring. With the mixer on lowspeed, alternately add the flour mixture and buttermilk to the butter mixture, in three additions,beginning and ending with the flour.
In a small cupcombine the vinegar and baking soda. Allow the mixture to fizz and thenquickly fold into the cake batter.
Working quickly, divide the batterevenly among the 12 muffin cupsand smooth the tops with an offset spatula or the back of a spoon. Bake in the preheated oven for approximately18 - 23minutes, or until a toothpick inserted in the center of the cupcakes comes outclean.
Cool thecakes in their pans on a wire rack for 10 minutes and them remove from pan. Letcool completely before frosting. Either spread the frosting with a knife oroffset spatula, or use a large open star decorating tip to pipe thefrosting.

Cream CheeseFrosting:

In the bowl of your electric mixer, or with a hand mixer, beat thecream cheese until smooth.
Add the vanilla andconfectioners sugar and beat until smooth.
Using the whisk attachment, gradually add theheavy cream and whip until the frosting is thick enough to pipe. Add more sugaror cream as needed to get the right consistency.

What's Bakin'?

2011-11-16T15:51:00.001+08:00

Hi there!!!

Haven't been baking in a long time due to school, having to complete my assignments on time and also to do my revision. I'm really unhappy about it, therefore, I've set my mind to start baking again tomorrow! And it shall be Red Velvet cupcakes! I will try to snap as many pictures as I can try to multitask and definitely will put up pictures and the recipe in my upcoming posts! Ciao!

Xoxo,
Alexis ♥

A Lost Hello

2011-10-28T09:51:00.002+08:00

Hi there everyone!

I really want to take this opportunity to apologize for my extensive absence! Apparently, I thought that I could maybe switch blog domains, but I came to realize that blogger is still the most user-friendly blog domain after-all. Oh well... So now that I'm back, I do hope that I would be able to blog consistently, please forgive meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

Just a little update from where I left off. Slightly more than a year have past, so many things has happened. I've gained some and I've lost some, in many aspects of my life. I've lost a few friends whom just further showed their true colors by deciding to left the friendship. But I would still look at it as I've gained more than I lost. Which is definitely something to feel positive about. Currently, I'm in my second year in ECU, and same as before, I pray for self-discipline, wisdom, positivity and determination, etc. The road ahead will surely be tough to move forward to but if I could stay focus and put in more effort, I'm pretty sure it will turn out just fine! Another thing is that my sister and I started an online business selling handmade chocolates. I do have faith that it will also be great.

Alright so that's all for now, I will try to update a Halloween post soon!! Till then.

-xoxo

Post Examinations

2010-09-06T11:11:00.002+08:00

Hey all, examinations for 2nd semester is finally over and just in a blink school will resume next week. So before the my 3rd semester starts, I would like to pray for more self-disciple, wisdom, better communication skills, higher tolerance, and oppotunities etc. In the coming 3rd semester, I'll be embarking on my electives and they are "Early Childhood" and "Counselling", and yes! I am looking forward for it to start! Alright, enough of school.

As you all know, Hari Raya is soon approaching, just in a few days time. For this Raya, everything just feels weird, it is very different from the previous 2 Rayas I celebrated. For the past 2 Rayas it was celebrated with Fadd and family. For this year, I wont be jalan raya-ing with Fadd, and it does feel weird. Nonetheless, I still bought my Baju Kurong, and it's black with purple and turqoise emboidery. But Im not really looking forward to it though.

Its been so long, things between the two of us is still so hard and dry. Why did all these even happened? If only I can go back to year 2007, I would have chosen not to go mustafa, and all these would have have happened, one thing would not have led to another. And now, I regret.

Vroooomm

2010-08-13T13:20:00.002+08:00

I have been attending my driving lessons DILIGENTLY. This time round, its nothing like the previous times when I attempted to go regularly. I literally stopped going for 8 months, and now? I need to relearn everything! Oh well, nonetheless, its good for me. Helps to refreshes my memory, and drill and prepare me with driving and road experience. So far, the furthest I went was til tampines and because Im new to manual cars, I had to maintain at a slow speed, say about 60km/h?

And i found out that I have a very weak bladder! Well initially I thought it was just not as good as everyone elses' but I realised that Im not able to store as much pee as others could! like in 100mins, i need to visit the loo 3 times! once before the lesson starts, another visit, in the middle of the lesson and once more right after the lesson ends. Weak mann!!

Okaye, I dont wanna sidetrack too much and keep talking about pee etc.

So you might be thinking why am I being serious with learning how to drive this time round? That is because Im already 22! Getting older makes it harder for me to learn... okaye, thats not really the reason why. Its actually because of self-accomplishment, you see, when everyone passes 18 the first few things they wanna do will be things they were forbidded to do before they reached 18. (E.g. buying alcohol, ciggarettes. Partying, M18 movies as well as driving legally). And I have already delayed this for 4 long years! I feel that is it time that I should do something useful and helpful to the family, if I've successfully gotten my liscense, I would be able to:

1. Take my mom to her weekly doctor's appointment so that my sister could have enough time to settle her wedding preparations.

2. Help to do delivery when there are more than 1 urgent order.

3. When either my dad or sister is out-stationed, their cars would be free for use, therefore, I CANT DRIVE THEM!!

4. I can help to run some errands. ( Which I hope, I dont have to)

LOADS MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Okaye, I gotta scoot for practical lesson now! Update more when I have the time! CIAOS.

-You know you love me,
xoxo.

No Sunshine

2010-07-23T15:40:00.003+08:00

What sustains a friendship?

Is it the amount of time you spend together?
The number of times you were there for each other through bad times?
The activities you indulge in together?
The fact that you share secrets with each other?
Having common goals and interests?

So what actually sustains friendships? This is a tough nut to crack, which many would feel that they know it well enough. Why does it seem that you would get marked for the slightest mistake you make or even some unintended negligence given? Yet for all the times you were there for them, they just choose not to remember? What does one get out of just remembering all the bad things?

Does being straightforward mean that you are bad? That you are not doing the right thing to a friend? Shouldnt friends be straightforward with each other? I personally feel that it is important to tell my friends things that are true, and not say things that will make them feel better at the point of time yet would sink back into the problem soon enough.

Life isnt a bed of roses whereby you could have all your worries/burdens/problems/unhappiness cushioned. Should we actually take things with a pinch of salt? YES WE SHOULD.

I really have no idea where this post is heading to, but I certainly have ALOT of queries that are in need of answers. Probably when im in a better state of mind, i'd draft out a proper post regarding friendship. My apologies, Sorry.

Yes, i know you missed me.

2010-07-19T13:16:00.004+08:00

Yes, I know that there have been an absence of myself over the past couple of months. And I am sure Im back this time round for good and for long, and no, I did not shift. I merely created another blog for random thoughts and emotions.

Speaking of emotions, I had a terrible rough row with myself last night. All the weeping and sniffing of juices from the nose had got me a little sick right now. I dont have any idea why would we feel this way? The more you want to find out about your problems, it would just seem to run away. Knowing that you're finally noticing it and realised that something went wrong and that it is time to pay it attention? It would start to squirm away, wriggle out of your sight, making it hard for you to capture and have a good look at it. Yubb, so this is what we call LIFE, this is what every regular human would go through, whether we like OR NOT, we would have to go through these crap that some greater force above us, somehow.. planned for us. Suck it in dudes.

On the other hand, I have a number of people on my list that i miss a whole lot. And i miss them emotionally. Sometimes too emotional that it would get me cranked up. But you and I both know that there is nothing we could do about a situation like this. What needs to come will eventually come, the more we want to fight it, the stronger it would crush us. Sad to say, we do not have a choice. How sad is that?

There are also alot of things I have piled up on my "to-do" list, I am hoping that I could take some time out for my personal stuff, for friends as well as for family. All I face now are books, books and books. Well, not exactly just books. But yeah, I am aware that I have neglected alot of little things, but I did not do it on purrrrrposeee. ((:

Well, nonetheless, the past few months have been great, I hope X: Got my grades and hopefully it would be consistent! I am trying hard to love the life now.

So.......... I'll see you guys when I see you.
-xoxo, tooooodles.

Poof

2010-04-13T15:49:00.002+08:00

I dont know what to write. I wrote 2 relatively long posts and ended up deleting them. DANGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

Everything we've had.

2010-04-12T13:05:00.002+08:00

After keeping myself busy for so long, i finally came to realise that my heart is still aching over the past. Not that its love, but its just something left unsettled. It brings tears to my eyes, aches to my heart and also saddness to my mind.

Why cant 2 ex lovers be friends? Why cant we live amicably and be good friends? Why must we have such awful conversations with each other time after time? Why cant we have a proper talk and sort things out and then FINALLY be friends again? It hurts so badly you know?

I have to keep up with so many things happening in my life. I have to please many people thts surrounding me, I need to consider many factors before i even decide to do something. For the mistakes i've made before, im sorry. For the harsh treatments i gave before, im sorry. I just want to have a proper conclusion of how we were, and how we could be. I know things wont go my way because of your stubborness, but all i wanna do is to try, even if chances are slim.

Life hasnt been easy after the toll, life hasnt been smooth after the call for an end. But i just want something thats the best for us and something that would keep us strong as friends. I wanna love your family and you equally AS FAMILY. Sigh. this is just such a heartache.

Thank God

2010-03-29T15:46:00.004+08:00

I really want to get myself a new camera. Urghhhh.
Went to Picadally Circus and tried their famous Buffalo Wings.
Level 4, initially i was pretty terrified, was afraid that i would prolly burn the walls of my stomach. haha but little did i know that, I DID NOT!
Seeee, i can take spicy food. Well not only was it spicy, it contains a strong taste of tabasco sauce too. That prolly explains why it was sourish.
Then we had a M-POP session. Had some videos taken down, it turned out FREAKING HILARIOUS. hahah.

Oh anyway, back to the camera topic.
And so i said, i really want to get a compact camera, like REALLY. not that the fujifilm one isnt good. Just that i felt that i wanted to have a digital cam, a compact cam, a DSLR in future, fisheye maybe.. Well. just lomography please..

oh well .. we'll just see how things go.

Anyway, the wedding yesterday was GREAT, i got to catch up with my old friends. everyone is doing so well now and i just cant help but to feel happy for them. Yet everyone was still the same! Awwww i just miss them all over again. So as we're at the wedding, they were playing some indian songs, and i realised a overly mad woman, sitting next to me shaking her head and singing along with the song, while fiddling with her iphone. i couldnt help but to diss her. and even till now i am still dissing her. many might think this woman im talking about is a stranger to me. Noo wayy. hahaha, she is none other than, Vhiska Yoganandhini. Yes, this indian mama asked me to write about her. and there she have it.

OH.. before i even end this post, i would like to thank my cousin WEIWEI! hahaha, because she motivated me to blog this entry! FYI, its pouring cats and dogs outside. SICK MANN.

Vegetarian-ism

2010-02-25T11:02:00.004+08:00

Does vegetarians know what food gives them the particular nutrients they need?

Does vegetarians know how to eat healthy?

Well i was reading through the papers (Credits to ST: MIND your BODY) this morning and this particular few pages caught my attention immediately and kept me reading on. I was certainly interested in this as my mom is a vegetarian herself and i am of course, concerned if she is taking in sufficient nutrients, what not.
Then as i was reading, it got me a little worried because being a vegetarian may not have a very healthy diet.

Many vegetarians may have negligence towards the deficiencies in certain nutrients. Which could actually lead to many serious illnesses in the long run.

Iron
Iron from plants aint as well absorbed therefore, this can lead to anaemia.
This can help! - Green leafy vegetables, figs, peas and broccoli

Calcium
Bones tend to get brittle over time if the body recieves insufficient calcium.
This can help! - Calcium-enriched beancurd aka tofu, broccoli, seeds, nuts, kale, bok choy and legumes

Protein
Plants lack certain essential amino acids, which are the key building blocks for the body.
This can help! - Legumes, soya, nuts, beans, seeds and substistute meat products

Vitamin B12 Most plant food lacks of vitamin B12 which is greatly needed for metabolic processes. Insufficient vitamin B12 may increase one's risk of dementia.
This can help! - Nutritional supplements

Omega-3 fatty acids
Helps to reduce the risk of heart problems and cholesterol levels.
This can help! - Walnuts, canola and soya

Vegetarians with kidney problems, should watch his/her potassium intake as leafy green vegetables and fruits like bananas and durians are high in potassium, as told by Dr Tan Seng Hoe from Gleneagles Medical Centre.

A damaged kidney is unable to regulate potassium levels and high levels can lead to irregular heartbeat.

Well, an alternative for kidney patients are to soak their vegetables for a few hours before cooking so as to reduce their potassiun levels. As for those who prefer to eat raw vegetables, seeds and fruit, be very careful of unhygenic food preparation and the risk of food poisoning, warned by nutritionists.

Many people may be wondering what is vegetarian? How come i heard of fruitarian, lacto-ovo etc.

Well.....

Omnivore
Eats both plants and aminal-based food. That is what most people are doing, with a high number still having a high-meat, high-fat diet.

Lacto-ovo- vegetarian
Eats eggs and diary products in addition to plant-based food, but no meant, poultry and fish.

Lacto-vegetarian
Eats diary products in addition to plant-based food, but no meat poultry, eggs and fish.

Vegan
Eats only plant-based food. No meat, poultry, fish, eggs and diary products.

Fruitarian
A vegan diet but with only fruit, nuts and seeds.

Raw food eater
Usually vegetarian diet with uncooked food or food not heated beyond a certain temperature. Food such as fruit, vegetables, nuts, seeds and sprouted grains and beans; more rarely pasteurished dairy products and even raw meat and fish may be eaten.

RAW FOOD EATER ------> WEIRD. urghh.

Hair Loss

2010-02-24T15:35:00.003+08:00

Are you fretting over the loss of your hair???
Or wondering how to increase your hair growth???

I have come across people who are suffering from hair loss, slow hair growth, balding head and receding hairline problems. Often a time, these are the problems they'll always worry about.

FRET NOT!!

Here are a couple of ways that could help!

6 Natural Ways to Increase Hair Growth

1. Do scalp shifting
- Using pads on your fingers, firmly place them all over your scalp and move your skin in a circular motion. Do this for the next 5 to 8 minutes.

2. Put red bell pepper on your head
- The spiciness of this fresg herb will speed hair growth byover 50%. Put a few slices in boiling water for about 10 minutes, then let it cool for the next 15 minutes. Next apply it on your scalp for about 30minutes, lastly, rinse it off.

3. Eat more protein
- Hair is made out of protein, therefore, by taking more protein you are promoting rapid hair growth. Food such as fish, chicken, cottage cheese, whey, peanut butter and steak are high in protein.

4. Take a Biotin supplement
- Biotin works great for your hair, skin and nails. Currently, there isn't any toxicity levels known for Biotin so it is BEST to take the high potency supplement of 5000mcg per day.

5. Take Magnesium supplement
- Just like Biotin, Magnesium is hair food. It helps with nerve stimulation and also relaxes your muscles.

6. Drink 6 - 8 glasses of water daily
- Sometimes the body will hold substances that harms your hair's natural growth and balance. So it is best to clear the toxic and clean out your system everynight. Simply drink 1 - 2 glasses of water before bed. Too much will cause puffy eyes and water retention.

Food that Stimulate Hair Growth

1. Eggs
- High in Biotin, vitamins that your high need to stay healthy. It is also very high in Protein. Try adding eggs into daily eating plans. Not too much egg yolk though.

2. Lean meat
- Chicken and tuna are both high in Protein which is very important for your hair. Eat at least 50 calories of tuna on a daily basis.

3. Vegetables
- High in vitamins that contains Zinc, Magnesium and Calcium.

4. Whole grain
- Rich in Zinc, vitamin B and Iron. ( For people who has a hetic scedule)

5. Carrots
- Rich in vitamin A.

How To Reverse Balding & Stimulate New Hair Growth

1. Mix hot olive oil, honey and 1 teaspoon of cinnamon powder into a paste. Apply it over head before bath and leave it on for 15 minutes. This helps to stimulate scalp to grow new hair.

2. Apply a mixture of aloe vera with herbal powder triphala to the hair for a period of time. (3 - 6 months) This enhances the speed of growing new hair.

3. Scrub the bald/balding portion with onions till it beomes red. Then apply honey. This gets blood flowing more freely to your scalp, nourishing and strenghtening your hair follicles.

Good Luck in making your hair grow! I hope this research is helpful!

Act of Betrayal

2010-01-21T14:49:00.003+08:00

Betrayal Can Whreck You More Than You Can Ever Expect

If you can betray LOVE once, you can betray LOVE twice.

& it goes on and on and on.

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Most of the times when im having some quiet time alone or when i decide that i should be doing some self-reflections, i tend have a thousand and one things dashing through my mind. Such as family, friends, relationships, school and some others. It may be all general thoughts but these general thoughts were somehow converted into day-to-day basis conversation topics i have with people. The thing is, when i think about these i kinda throw questions back to it and in a way or another, i would be posted with another question sub-conciously. When i come to a point whereby im speechless that would be when i try to hit the sacks. So the moment i get up the next day, first thing that i will recall of was "what was i doing right before i went to bed last night?" And so it goes on and on, especially when i couldnt find or debate with myself for an absolute positive solution, this is when it turns into things i talk to people around me about.

So lately i have been seeing and hearing alot about BETRAYAL. What exactly is betrayal?

Betrayal is the breaking or violation of a presumptive social contract, trust, or confidence that produces moral and psychological conflict within a relationship.

Well, to put it in simple words it simply means by having done actions that is letting people down, it could be cheating on your partner, lying to your friends or leaking out confidential information to others.

What i would like to emphasise most in this entry would be LOVE BETRAYAL. And i thought to myself:

Why people would actually resort to love betrayal?
Why would people want to betray the people they love or rather claim they love?
How can they bear to do things that would hurt their partner?
Would people ever betray love for money?

All these boils down to their moral values and humanity. Many could actually come up with reasons like:

"I betrayed my partner because he/she wasnt giving me the attention that i want."
"Oh, i dont get the sense of security from him/her and this other guy/girl has it."
"I dont dare to break up with him/her, im afraid he/she might not be able to take it."
"He got no money and this other guy has, he can provide for me. But on the other hand i still need my plan B, so i should just date 2 guys at one go."
"I cant bear to let go this relationship, afterall we've been together for so long. Yet i have already start to fall in love with this other guy/girl."

There are many many more excuses that i could mention but i'd rather not. In this situation, the problem lies in their humanity and morality. Betrayal should not even take place right from the start.

So when you feel that there is a problem with the relationship, first is to deal with it, settle all the misunderstandings or issues you have with each other. Give each other some time to think about the relationship, whether it could go far or should you put an end to it. When things are settle or talked over and the decision is to break up, take time to heal and when you are better, you move on.

If money is the reason why you betray, that makes you someone who can be bought over by money, putting your integrity, chasity and moral values below money. This would be an ultimate disgrace to all mankind.

Personally, I am very against love betrayal. I am very sure that no one would want to be betrayed by their partner and there would be tons of people who would agree with me that betraying your partner is a despicable act. It would only show others what kind of person you are inside.

Well, of course, people who does the betraying would have a million excuses and would definately deny that what they are doing does not equate to betrayal. But sad to say, people who dont betray would clearly have the ability to conclude if your actions are considered as an act of betrayal.

If you can betray once, what makes you think you would not have the tendency to betray again in the future? There are many good examples out there for you to relate to. If one feels that he/she did not do anything wrong and that what they are doing/did isnt/wasnt considered as betrayal, i can positively assure that these people would never be able to find true love. Because they have already lost the true meaning of love.

Empty Pockets

2010-01-20T13:32:00.006+08:00

If only i could turn back time

Last night, while i was surfing the internet i came across a video and it made me realise that i actually regret not doing many things. If only i would have been more disciplined, more obidient and submissive. Well, i would still try to do it someday, but i hope im not too old to learn by then.

On a side note, maipig, maki, ilario and myself met up to send jackie off to the airport. It was an awful moment knowing that jackie was leaving and wont be coming back in the next couple of months. But all's well, it wasnt as bad as the first time he left for UK, i believe we have all learnt to control our emotions.

I miss maipig, maki and hana! okaye it was random i know. hahaha

Anyway i got to get back to packing my room. am gonna clear as many things as possible and take measurements, heading to IKEA to look out for any other furniture that i may left out! MAD EXCITED!

Happy Ang Family!

Ang Siblings!

Us with jiejie!

Us but shorting of Hana and Leon )):

Maki !!

Maipiggg

My Sweets!

Jackieeeeeee

Alright, got to goooooooo! oh!! i almost forgot that i need to bathe phiphi as well! bahhhhh!
CIAOS!

My Missing Act

2010-01-19T05:17:00.002+08:00

I wish everyday would be a happy day

To all, Im sorry that I haven't been writing in for some LONG time. There are many explanations to that which i would refuse to speak about, but after sometime i understood that there should not be a thing that would stop me from blogging. For this, i sincerely apologise for my absence and would try my best to make regular posts and updates as well.

To people whom hasnt heard from me in AONS! I will starting work over at my pop's office starting from 1st of Feb 2010. I would also be undertaking Psychology come late March/early April. Yes yes, i know this is sudden but its happening. In the year of 2010, i hope to be a better daughter, sister, owner, friend, partner, etc to all my loved ones.

On the other hand, i also apologise for moments that i have neglected anyone. If there were to be anything that made any of you unhappy about me/my actions. I do hope that you could kindly speak it up and mention it to me. It has been a rough 2009 and i seriously do hope that things would turn into a better situation for me. I couldnt be happier having my family, to support my decisions and making it happen.

I am also very excited for my sister! She will be getting married end of this year, i cant wait and i am uber glad that she has found someone that is worth her spending the rest of her life with. Theres so much to be done and im all ready for it!

Last but not least, i would like to end this post with a BIG THANK YOU, to all who has been very tolerating of my behaviour and my nonsense! To all who has been supporting my as my friend. To all who has helped me with my problems, and lastly to all who has been there for me, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

Steamboat

2009-09-03T20:09:00.012+08:00

Hey all, reading through all my posts i really feel that its kinda boring. Therefore, i have decided to blog on things I'm better in or rather things that would be beneficial to others upon reading as well. First of all i have to disclaim that this is just amateurish posts alright?

Alright, had a mini steamboat dinner over at Fadd's place. I met him at about close to 5 at 888 plaza and did some grocery shopping. Then after, proceed to prepare the food.

In a steamboat meal, what i feel that is mostly unhealthy is when people boils the broth using large amount of chicken stock. I understand if people dont know how to prepare broth thats why they resorted to using chicken stock. But they should try to learn the the proper way of preapring broth, for steamboat broth is really important, as it adds flavour to the food you throw into the pot.

In this post, I will try to teach how to prapare for a steamboat feast!

Broth Preparation
Ingredients needed:

Water
Corn
Carrots
Dried Squids / Ikan Bilis
Chicken Bones
Long White Cabbage
Soya Beans

First of all, fill the pot with desired amount of Water. Next, prepare the ingreidents by soaking the Dried Squid or Ikan Bilis and the Soya Beans in separate bowls of water. Then after, cut the Corns, Carrots and Chicken Bones into smaller pieces. By now, you should be boiling the pot of water and when water is boiling with popping bubbles, throw in the prepared ingredients and leave it to boil with small-medium fire.

Other Ingredients Preparation
Ingredients Bought

Fish Balls
Hot Dog
Chicken Thighs
Salmon
Prawns
Crab Sticks
Cauliflower
Asparagus
Spinach
Squid
Chicken Fillet
Wanton Skin
Crabs

Well, for Fish Balls, Hot Dog, Salmon, Crab Sticks, Cauliflower, Asparagus, Spinach and Squid, you just need to slice it into smaller pieces like how you would usually prepare it. Where as for the Chicken Fillet and Wanton Skin you would have to prepare it for yourself, it wouldnt form into wanton dumplings on its own definately. And for the Crab, it was cooked as chili crab. I will do a demo for that next time...

For the Chicken Thighs, its good if you can marinate it to give it the extra kick of taste when cooked. To marinate it, theres alot of ways to do so. But for that night, shallot oil with some shallots, pepper, a little light soy sauce, and cornflour. Rememeber to mix it well, so as to let the meat be well marinated and eat the sauces.

So, for the Wanton Dumplings.
For the minced meat, you can marinate it with light soy sauce, pepper, sesame oil and also chopped spring onions (optional), chopped water chestnut (optional).

Lay piece of Wanton Skin on top of fingers

Scoop a teaspoon of marinated minced meat in the middle of skin

Take the bottom corner and fold upwards into a triangle

Bring the right corner diagonally upwards to the left of the tip of the triangle

And the remaining left corner, diagonally upwards to the right side of the tip of the triangle

The dumpling should be looking as decent as this (:

There you have it!

Thats all for the steamboat entry, I hope this would help all of you to prepare better steamboat feast!!

Miss Independent.

2009-08-21T14:21:00.003+08:00

Lungs hurts

Gastric hurts

Pancreas hurts

Hands hurts

Head hurts

Neck hurts

Foot hurts

Back hurts

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Alright just tell me where doesnt? It has been a hectic week and i forsee that it would be busier the next few days. To those who have to leave, leave. Maybe you would find greater joy elsewhere. so please enjoy yourselves alright? And for people who are not here now, its time to come home.

Well anyway, its pouring heavily on a friday afternoon and im stucked here, not being able to fall asleep. But its such a good weather to sleep like a babyyyyyy. Just let 2 hours to past first, and wait for GOOD news.

Another random thing is, im hungry. Theres no food, and gastric pain will soon make its visit if this goes on, but its rainingggggggg!! its not possible to head out to get food, and it is also not possible to make food!! I will be fine! hahahhaha strong woman hahahaha.

Exams is making its way right now, it will have its arrival in a couple of days, and it isnt of a very good feeling/vibe that im getting from it. Somehow, im trying to sustain myself from being at my wits. WELL, I AM TRYING DUDE. cut me some slack! oh wait a minute, but i have been slacking!?!?!?!?!? URGHHHHHHHHH dont remind me that please!. EVIL BRAIN. Well in anyway, i will have to do it tml as well. yawww.

Tomorrow is the start of fasting month. Okayeeeee.

You can't run and hide

2009-08-19T22:18:00.003+08:00

I know who you are.

And i know what you are trying to do.

On a high note.
Things are not getting any better. But i will definately try to turn things right for myself. I would not let myself get into something to get hurt or not be appreciated again. I would build myself to be a better and wiser person and not to be stepped on again. WAIT.

In fact i feel better now, after i broke down.

What' the story morning glory?

2009-08-16T23:18:00.002+08:00

Everyone's leaving!
Everyone's leaving!
Everyone's leaving!
Sherry's going........
Sailen's going............
Gautam's going...........
My sister's going............
My cousis's going...............
Ajay's going............................
Su's going....................................

OH MY GAWDDDDDDDD. Just left with me, all alone in singapore. DAMN IT. so sad so sad.
I dont know what to do during my holiday! i wanna go phuket! i wanna go genting! i wanna go orissa! i wanna go EVERYWHERE TOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

So, what the story morning glory?

Do you know what we're all fighting for?

2009-08-15T16:51:00.003+08:00

The past week was tiring. Was mugging at admiralty for 4nights!
At last, 4 down 2 more to go, and feeling all so excited already. But then again theres a limit to how much excitement i can enjoy. Well it has always been like this, sigh.

Right now, i am just going to what i want and what makes me happy. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
Bye .

Emptiness

2009-08-11T06:20:00.003+08:00

I dont know why. Im just speechless. I really dont know.
Please dont ask. And dont crack your brain thinking why.
I wanna take my leave. Im leaving......

I fear nothing.

2009-08-07T02:34:00.003+08:00

If only you knew, what my heart must do for you. I’m trying to break through, don’t you think it’s worth the chance? Let’s leave the past, is that too much to ask? And where do we stand?

I need a break, these have been taxing. I cant breathe, i think i am going to be the worst nightmare. I choose to keep silent about this, i will lay low and be the bad guy.

Its good that you behaved this way, hence showing me how you can be. I have seen alot lately, you have proven it all. This experience is and will be priceless, i wont comment on it again. You are the best, so now, take your stride, take your leave. You'll be better without me. You will break free. Now, all the best ******, i wont be in your way anymore.

Yours Truly,
Yenn Alexis

SupperClub

2009-08-06T00:41:00.011+08:00

Oh wells, for this post, i'll start proper.

Basically, it has been long since i last posted and i wanna try to start posting regularly again. hahahahahaha. well anyways, went to the Snow White party on last saturday at the new SupperClub, apparently its pretty famous in Paris, but thats not the point. Was rushing SBR earlier that night then handed it over to Atikah, then after headed to Bugis and met the girls at Macs, lepaked for a while. SupperClub was stuffy and hot over at the RnB side, in a couple of minutes of trying to squeeze through the crowd, i started perspiring profusely!, LITERALLY. haha. The mood to dance wasnt really there, the huge crowd and hot temperature was almost flooding me with my own perspiration. Left the Fruit Babes earlier, as i have to do my project the next day at Woodlands. I was BEAT.

Fruit Babes

Ting posing the "act-virgin" look.

eyes looks scary.

as usual, cam-whoring

nice

I call her Miss Coolness

Beautifulllllll

Visited a North Indian restaurant, Kashmir. The food was really great, the briyani was awesome, setting was cosy as well. pictures that was taken wasnt clear! sorry, i cant post them. ):

well, but for YangGuiFei, it was wayyyyyyyyy better ((:
met the pig on monday, cos our lessons ends at the same time. she thoughtfully strolled down from SIM to NgeeAnn to meet me. SO SWEET. we took 74 to Dover and trained to Chinatown. Went for foot reflexology, ok it was really random. and as usual, i was crapping with the uncle!!!

Good place to try chinese cuisine

OMG, act cute again

Jackie also wanna try to act. he trying to act fierce!

OK, sorry that i have 2 retarded friends!

There they go again.

Long awaiting of Biang2 noodles

To go with the noodles, spicyyyy and a lil sour

OKAYE, sorry FOLKS, this is the best! everyone agrees mann.. MUTTON KEBAB

BIANG2 NOODLES

i dont know what is this called

WOWWWWWWW niceee

BEEF

Egg and tomato clear soup

alright, im doen with posting uber tired now...................... help mee....

Welcome Back

2009-08-03T01:39:00.004+08:00

Oh well hey all, I'm back to using this site again. Dont bother asking why, because it doesnt really matter anymore. I choose to keep quiet about it and not say a single thing from now onwards. Its been a while since i last felt this force in me, something so strong, full of courage and angst. I guess i have more or less decided what to do already. Because i believe, that i have been proven it all, through gestures, actions and words. And for this time round, im ready.

Anyway, my room is back to neat and tidy, though i cant assure u that it could bt kept like this for long. but nonetheless, i will definately try. Well anyway, the reason for today's post is of the purpose to inform others that
http://imlovedd.blogspot.com is back in service. (:

too much things

2008-08-03T08:59:00.001+08:00

yaw.

oh no, so many to talk about..
hahah
1. CRM problems are all OVER
2. NO MORE COMtoolKIT
3. NO MORE IAC too!!
4. need to start MUGGING, like REALLY START
5. tanning and swimming with manda..
6. met with baby and friends.
7. tanning and swimming again.
8. MANLY things.

so 1, 2, 3 arent important anymore! so shant be elaborating on it.. will only be talking abt 4
onwards.

4. MUGGING.

ohmygawd... i really need to mug mug mug exams are approaching. like 3 papers, like 3 tough ones, like 3 moudules load of crap to memorise? and i MUST start SOON. yenn, discipline yenn!!

5. tanning and swimming

on thursday, did tanning and swimming with manda. we had the 4.30pm sun which wasnt really effective though, haha, then after swimming 50 laps and all we went home to bathe and i headed over to her place to do girly things.. we ended up trying on clothes, doing facial masks and online shopping spree!! and it all ended and i got home at 4am.

6. met up with baby and friends.

oh no, oh no. i really miss baby!! its been months since i last really hanging out with him and zhenlu and friends. met them at PUMA at marina square. HAD CARLS JR. FUCKING FULL..
baby packed half of his burger back because she simply couldnt finish.. ahha then we chilled at the open area and talked alot!! then waited for weiming to do closing and we walked over to suntec to catch a cab. then finally! cabbed down to jooseng to meet other friends.. saw kenny,arnold,yuyang and jiaqi there.. its been a long time too!!.. talked about life and all. till 5 am

baby and mommy! haha

baby!

puma's talent!

WTF

random again

action only

zhenlu mr WHY

coming out from the store... busy man

yuyang and jiaqi

mommy and baby!

7. tanning and swimming

yesterday, decided to tan and swim with manda again. not much sun though and there were like so any people at the pool. damn. then while tanning we're talking about how we want to revamp our room and all.. and why some designer sucks? haha! that was super random.. OH OH and we measure the pool' s length its 7 metres.. ooooooo... 7 tiles = 1 m and there were 49 tiles so it makes it 7metres... ahah then we planned for the night.

8. MANLY things

i went over to manda's place cos she needed help with some drilling, hammering, fixing, soldering so manly, but we still did it.. i hurt my leg because the heated flux fell onto my leg and now, its blistered..and i slept for quite a bit when manda was trying to fix her lappy and packing her things.

okaye sorry my totally messy room.

manda!

the holes that we drilled

ok first we used hammer then we used dumbell!

the walk-in wardrobe... haha

GHOSTLY

oh well i came home at 7am and im blogginggggg.. really tired now, need to get my sleep.!!

recap.

2008-07-28T12:21:00.006+08:00

RECAP..

oh well i did quite a bit of catching up with a couple of friends.
well i met up with tiffany, and we chilled over at coffee club and started looking at people..
tiz was there too.!

then i met up with iris, lyn and seng the next day. felt really good about it haha! and its been a LONG time too. we had swensens and well what can i say? iris have been CRAPPING ME SHIT! hahha LOVE THIS BABE..

its been a while girl

and seng, with his earring

and babe again (=

and just on friday, i met jack. had dinner with his family... oooooo i just cant wait for his sis to deliver!!! so looking forward to that.. arghhh ok we went to tamon, a really good japanese restaurant. like one bento cost close to $30?? haha and a simple one too..

TAMON

well i didnt snap pictures, so i just grabbed some from esle where

then after, bala joined and we headed to highlander and drank up loads, next to shiraz, had more beer and sisha! OH OH OH there were belly dancers too! TOTALLY AWESOME! i swear jack had got his eyes stuck on them!! and the following day HE WANTED TO HEAD BACK THERE BADLY.. but... we didnt. HAHA
instead mai, bala, jacky and myself checked out MAMAS CARRIBEAN.. wasnt exactly GOOD as i thought. but stil not bad...

MAMAS

and last night, met up with sai and rayner, dined at joe's corner had fish and chips and sai had grilled salmon. we SINFULLY binged on cakes and ice-cream too! damn.... had a couple of pounds on alrdy. shitloads.

mug

2008-07-19T20:48:00.000+08:00

mug.

now, i really need to START MUGGING. but i just cant seem to getting along with it.
theres a weird kind of repulsion. nonetheless, IM GOING TO DO IT.
by hook or by crook (:

prove to me u're REAL

2008-07-10T01:51:00.006+08:00

why is this so?

why is it that im feeling this way? why is it that i cant put my finger to what im exactly feeling? and this is just so taxing of my energy. i cant point out my unhappiness because i dont even know how to say it. WHY??? why am i feeling this way? how come things are falling apart within me again? why am i feeling all so depressed out of the sudden? i dont know, i really dont know

i feel as if im at a crossroad.

after the conversations i had with my friend recently made me feel this way, that life's a bitch. he puts me down just like a snap. im always being expected to be like how others want me to, then it keeps me wondering when can i really be myself? when would someone put themself in my shoes? and when would someone really understands how i feel? hey dude, the things you say to me all these while has hurt me all the time. and whenever i try to share how i feel to you, it leads to nowhere. i feel upset of the way im feeling about our friendship, you might not know that you're actually pushing me away. and til one point of time, i will really go. we all have different personalities and characters, why want to force me into something else? not literally FORCE, but the words u used and the things u relate to me about just makes me feel that the conversation will always be stagnant. yes prolly u didnt say that im in the wrong. and whenever i say something, you'll always have your 101 reasons or statements to back you up. its hard, its really hard, i've tried to understand and change myself, but then when things dont get resolved, it makes me think to myself "why must i be someone else? and when can i BE myself?" no one would prolly be able to tell me this, because this situation is hard to fix. just so hard.

problem 3 is over too and which school would be from 8am-6pm BUT thankfully, anyway, btc project is finally over, crmaaron's plw tutorials are done! its just makes me feel a load lighter. today was quite a easy-going day, though its a wednesdaybtc and plw lectures were cancelled. that explains why. headed to al-ameen with kandace, atikah, serious and wayne. and i felt good hanging out with them, though sometimes i feel odd and i dont know why.

our BTC roof model

wayne getting cranky

atikah trying to be funny

karwah, OMG no comments

anyway this is a complementary pic of maipig and i (x

sighh, where are you? i've been waiting to talk to you the whole day, but where were you? till, now you haven called me. is this real??? is what we are having REAL? are you who you are? thats the confusion im having within me. please dont let me think the other way round, be like how u've portray urself to me please. i miss you. ):

electricfying

2008-07-05T02:16:00.003+08:00

& it has been electrifying

oh hello once again, im back after afew days of MIA-ing. few days have past and im still in the same old situation waiting for the same old damn thing to end. its pretty funny at times, why things always turns out to be how u've never expected it to? and it just keeps you wondering why. yea pretty weird but thats just part and parcel of life isnt it?

friendship to me seems to have taken on a different perspective and still to no avail of perfect and most accurate answers, it leaves me blank and at lost. why is it that the GOOD TIMES only last for that lil short period and that after awhile, it ALL leads back to square one again. and thats just so dispiriting, you'll just find yourself lingering in and out of different situations. just how to make myself feel better and to solve it would be so destressing, and yet again who would know? and who would understand? dont bother telling me " i do understand, and i've been thru shit like you are now? well the fact is you dont, u've never been thru this SHIT.

another thing is, "you" i really dont know when you would actually start to heed my advices and change your mindset, it hurts me to see you behaving this way it also pains me to know whats your intentions are. we all know that this will never bring you far but once again, you're just living in your own world and self-denying. it really breaks my heart to know that, and i cant take it no more, YET again and again u'll be doing this and saying all this fucking crap. WHEN WOULD YOU ACTUALLY START UNDERSTANDING ALL THE FUCK I SAY??? WHEN WHEN WHEN? what do you even regard me as??? if i even mean a thing to you, why not listen?? WHY NOT? im harmless with my opinions and advices!!!!!!!! stop behaving like a fuck shit, if i dont care for you i wouldn't even be gaving a FLYING FUCK about you. DUMBASS!! wake up your FUCKING idea would you??? IT IS absoFUCKINGlutely DESTRESSING. you know?? you dont FUCKING know a single bit.

well anyway i went to sam's place for dinner, i waited for her lessons to end and took a bus together and her mum cooked asam pedas! delicious~~~ BUT her mum made me SO MALU, kept being such a good host and all, AND when i wanted to help with the dishes and brought the plates back to the kitchen she called me GATAL!! hahahaha then still make tea with pandan leaves and it was aromatic! NICE! kept me going for a few cups and with keropok and it is STILL DELICIOUS. so aunty if you are actually reading this post, or sam if u're reading this convey this: " AUNTY YOUR COOKING IS SUPERB! and i LOVE IT. (((: <333"

i kept wondering why our faces were red haha!

FAT FAT FAT me

still FAT FAT FAT haha

SAW THAT?? WTF

another 2 weeks

2008-06-27T15:13:00.003+08:00

and its 2 weeks later

oh wells, bloggie seems dead after the previous longer entry, BAHHHHHHHHHH. hahaha anyhows, on monday i got back 2 of my common test papers which made me pretty suprise (: and thats because i passed them!! hahah 62% for ELS and 75% for BTC, and i must admit that i revised very last minute-ly. noticed i dont really talk about PLW? thats because i know i'd fail for that paper HAHA, not that i didnt do my revision for that, but because i forgot all my cases once i recieved that paper to start on. in short, im going for the 4 hours PLW revision class which im HAPPY about it, because i can study!!!

on tuesday, was baohui's 18th birthday, and we went to ramen 10 to have the birthday lunch then after, we strolled from far east all the way to cineleisure and chilled at the starbucks next to swensens for quite a while chatted with the girls ALOT, then walked over to plaza singapura and i bidded goodbye and headed to meet mummy. and i realised that mummy really put in alot of effort to pray for a change in me. sighh it just made me love her tons more and realise that if i dont start cherishing i'll lose them sooner than i can expect. sighhhh.

thursday, went to ********* and was told that results not out yet, and have to wait till 2 weeks later, its just so worrying and my heart just cant feel eased. i dont want to think about it but it just keeps flashing in my mind. im worried and im sad and im always thinking about it. and im not just only thinking about myself, im also thinking about **** i really am. im not forsaking but i just got no choice. and my heart ACHES so badly. sighhh i really dont know what to say anymore. because only i know how i really feel within.

i dont have a choice.

as people always says time can heal every wound. and i reall hope it can i dont usually buy this staement but this time, i would want to try to. geez time really flies, im meeting maipig and jacky for foot reflexology and steamboat laters!! cant wait.. ciao everyone!!

there might never be another chance

2008-06-23T22:34:00.009+08:00

Hopelessly waiting

saturday was dimsum session at laguna national golf and country club located near xilin road. well the club was pretty amazing as we were looking over the golf area and the other restaurants, the pond, the spa room and some others, and it was good. anyway was with pearllyn, anqi, winson and jingkai. and we played abit joked alot and became all so crazy, i miss them ):

DIM SUM PLACE

LAGUNA!!!

loveeyyy

wooohooo

teeeheeee

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after dimsum i went to pick maipig and her friend, grace up from TP and went over to mai's place wanted to give grams and gramppy a surprise BUT they weren't home ): soon, jack came over, after awhile maipig and jack claimed that they were HUNGRY and was craving for KATONG LAKSA and look how hungry they were?

this was how hungry they were!

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then we headed to watch "do not mess with THE ZOHAN" it was HILARIOUS!!!!!! hahaha haha soon after we decided to have arabic food at aliwal street it was not bad just that the service was really slow and all. and then we cabbed down to katong road and chilled at DE BALI CAFE let me tell you this place is AWESOME.. haha let the pictures show u how amazing then (:

yea..

eat and go 1st storey

dining table

indoor fine dine 2nd storey

outdoor seatings

stairway to 2nd storey

smoking area

beautiful isn't it??

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maipig left earlier leaving jack and i drinking together, we had cocktails and beer chatted alot and left at about 2 am and walked all the way to still road, decided to sit at the bus stop and talk more, and i didnt know why i ended up crying badly and i shant talk about why.

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on sunday, i met jack in town to ate a little at DIN TAI FUNG ... FOOD!! yummylicious food and my all-time fav xiao long bao~~~ and the fried rice and the prawn dumplings too. woohoo you guys should try it mann. want to get tempted?? YES YOU SHOULD!!!

yes boy, i know you're hungry((:

while waiting for FOOOOODDDD

MY FAVVVVVV

prawn - meat dumplings

GOOD STUFF

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did a little walking after food in wisma, paragon and takashimaya, went to chanel and checked the bags out wanted to pick something for jacky's sister as a maternity gift, saw a $5000+ it was the perfect pick, classic and with a touch of elegance totally sexy!!! i love it.. after a bit we headed to the carpark to get ready to zoom to maipig house, grams prepared dinner!!! i miss them, because i treat them like my own grandparents. then again pictures to lead you proper (:

in the car

just so random

GRAMS!! and GRAMPPY!! i loveeeeeeeee this

after dinner, we went to MISS CLARITY CAFE TO CHILL, i had this chocolate cake with wafer and a vanilla ice-cream to go along with and a glass of mixed berries frizz, maipig as usual ordered her calamari and steamer (hot vanilla milk) and as for jack? he had a strawberry soda with a cherry in it. (((: what attracted us to miss clarity cafe was the decor and the concept. very kiddish!! you shall see alright?

introducing ---- MISS CLARITY CAFE!

dining area

side signboard

the area that we're seating

cute little displays

ok im lazy to elaborate further already. its ONE LONG POST

waiting, still waiting

2008-06-21T00:21:00.009+08:00

Im waiting, still waiting

well it was out class gathering yesterday and though it was pretty disorganised but things turned out well soon after. i loved the way atikah qiuxuan and jianming said "PUCK KEW" it was super hilarious that serious and i had to walk away. haha oh wells, anyhow we reached the pit afer collecting the food and bummed around here and there while waiting for the rest to join us.i saw jiajun when he was a few steps away from the pit and noticed he had his hair cut, then the next thing i know was that i was SUPER STUNNED with what he did. he threw the bottles of drinks hard onto the ground, yes LITERALLY. it was definately shocking but wasnt scary, like come on thats not how scary is to me, wait til u've gone through what i had then you'll know what REAL scary is. anyway he got even more frustrated when manling when to talk to him and he just huffed away back home. serioulsy i felt that was unnecessary, truly unnecessary, well this totally defeated the purpose of a class gathering. knowing that you're came all the was from causeway point to east coast and from MACs all the way to pit 54, the more you shouldnt have gone back. this only shows how immature you were, only kids behaves this way, you are no longer in primary school nor secondary school, and if you have any unhappiness you should VOICE out straight to people's faces not just get all so emotional and keep it to yourself, isnt it just so unfair to others who didnt do anything wrong to you? you should learn to be responsible of your own emotions and TAKE CONTROL. the reason why i didnt say this straight at your face is because i dont want to further agitate you and i didnt want to seem like a bully. when i was 17 i was not even a bit like how you are now. wake up boy, we'll have 3 years together, why spoil it?
anyway some pictures to keep you awake. (: ya'll !!

retarded qiuxuan trying to catch a picture

haha whats manling trying to do?

4 crazy girls

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then after i headed to meet maipig and jacky and we went to bernie's to drink!! erdinger as usual!! ALOT OF ERDINGER. sweet and lingering apetizing flavour on your taste buds! haha then i headed back to the pit becuase i bought some ice and drinks thinking that they might not have enough. and as i was headin back to the pit i saw this guy in red sitting in the middle of the pavement and looking wobbling left to right and guess who is was... KARWAH .. tadaaa!! how amazing!? he was DRUNK, dead drunk that he was spouting nonsense, he even slapped maipig's hands and asking who the fuck was she and calling her HOT when she's not!! hahah how retarded...

my all-time fav!! ERDINGER

my most beloved honey-buns

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AND today!! woke up and was on the phone with micheal almost the whole morning and then maipig came over around 5 plus and she immediately POUNCED ONTO MY BED and started to WHINE saying that she's tired and wants to sleep and bla bla bla, obviously i said NO. and she started WHINING AGAIN AND AGAIN.i know that before i couldnt take it anymore and had to kick her out of my house, i had go out asap! we headed to jacky's home camwhored abit and left for KOREAN CHARCOAL BBQ located along EAST COAST PARK and we were so unfamiliar to this and literally watched the lady doing everything for us, how NOOB were we??? hahaha seriously the food was AWESOME! god damn good. hahaha

super random!!

she's MY BITCH

and i LOVE her

dont you dare touch them, i'll skin you

YUMMY

EVEN YUMMIER~~

LOOK AT THE SPREAD!! @@

im seriously indulging!

i love him, because he's my BEST BUDDY! WOOHOO

goodnight all i hope i've been entertaining!
-XOXO ;

just waiting

2008-06-19T12:56:00.002+08:00

im only waiting

oh wells, im happy that all 6 of us managed to meet up last evening. we spinned afew rounds and squabbled here and there before we could even decide on what to eat. oh mann... and iasked them to put their heads together, anqi literally wanted to put their heads together just imagine how silly is she. she was insisting on joining her head with others'. soon later, we finally made a decision to go to kobayashi, and in order not the order the same food i had to say that what anqi wanted to order was SPICY and she believed it. HAHA. so dinner was filling, at least to me. but for sam, she was being an onion girl the whole time. i really didnt know how to make her stop eating those hotplate onions, which she have already conquered one. how silly.

along the way, we were taking pictures, cranky ones, but what to do? with anqi around we're always cranky. and it comes naturally, not forced. i walked out of the mall with sam and shared the problem with her, after sharing the atmosphere was still, and i could sense the emotions were at a state of confusion. all i can say is that im really disquieted and penitential of what i've done. im sorry friends and family. and i really hope i could variate into a brand new person, because i've lettered from my folly.

anqi and myself

anqi ad pearllyn

nz0604p-maddies

anqi's new-found friend

another of her new-found friend

short couple WAHAHA

EH-HEE!! lovee

our shaved-snow ice

TA-DAA the 6 of us!!

waha~ no comments

SAM and I

anyway, after meeting up with them i met afiq for movie. we enjoyed the incredible hulk. i just dont get it, why am i watching incredible hulk when there's a HULKnext to me? WAHAHAH i miss afiq so much. he one big bubbly BEAR. and he said i grew fatter. how mean and im feeling guilty. nahh actually i forced him to. hahhahaha
anyway, heading to meet qiuxuan serious atikah and karwah to collect the BBQ stuffs now, i hope i'll have fun!! and same to you all!!! oh ya meeting maipig and jacky laters too.!! HOW AWESOME!!!!

joe's corner

2008-06-18T03:32:00.000+08:00

neighbours

oh well, i had the cravings for desserts so i called samni and salni up hoping that they would be home and would also love to have desserts at joe's corner. and amazingly they were heading back and didnt decline my offer. anyways they said they were driving back and less than 10 mins they texted me to go out and find them. we walked to joe's corner and chatted a bit on the way there. ordered some finger food and chatted even more, we talked abt life and all.

i realised throughout our 13 years of friendship, we've really watched each other all grow up, though our paths might be different and all but nonetheless our friendship still stood strong and even though we dont meet up everyday but the bond was still there and we're all protective of each other.

anyhow, we had brownies with ice-cream with a slice of fresh apricot. it was heavenly and filling. after we footed for the bill sai called and asked where were we. i told him we're at joe's corner and he said rayner and himself were coming. we waited, and when they arrived he straightaway asked if there were still smoothies and all. so RETARDED. he even asked if they used milk, and if they did he wanted a LOW FAT milk, he was seriously cranky.

some pictures to lead you proper. (:

lovely flowers

myself,samni & salni.. and yes they're TWINS

SO BLUR

sai's & rayner's smoothie

that's sai with the caveman look-alike face

SALNI

SAI AND I

3 of us

sai & myself again

camera shy rayner haha!

us 4

oh im so thrilled that im seeing anqi, sam,winson,jingkai and maybe pearllyn tomorrow. its been a while since we last saw each other and its time to meet up. looking forward for dinner. it's late now, i should turn in soon, bye all

liquid kitchen

2008-06-17T16:34:00.000+08:00

Wanting to be brand new

well, on saturday jack and maipig came over my place at about close to 11pm, we drove over to gardens had our late dinner at happy daze and we hoped over to liquid kitchen for some edinger. erdinger was superbly awesome, it was light and had a lil sweet lingering taste on ur buds. perfect!

MAIPIG! trying to be artistic

we had no choice but to snap in the loo, no other lightings

3 of us at the petrol kiosk

and on sunday, i caught a train to lil india station and met them there. they were so secretive about where they went earlier and refused me to meet them at bugis instead. when we met up i asked where did they go, that was when they told me they went to the sima road' temple and prayed for me. and while waiting for me at lil india they also went to one of the hindu temples to pray too. im so touched and blessed to have such great buddy and girlfriend with me. i love you both.

yesterday, i met maipig at chinatown after her work, i couldnt help it! because i was craving for KOI'S bubble tea. before that mai asked if i wanted to eat some braised chicken wings and because i havent tried that before thats why i decided to get one haha. see how adventurous? BUT the uncle who was selling it WAS SO RUDE! i cant imagine how his business could still make money with his attitude. it was totally outrageous, first he wanted me to take the plastic bag from him while i was talking to mai by saying "HELLO !!" im so not deaf can? then it was $2 and we didnt want to give him a $50 note so we were digging for coins for him, then he stood right infront of us as if we will run off without paying for that pathetic chcken wings. so retarded right? but anyhow, we paid and left immediately. headed over to KOI ordered our drinks and chatted with xinyu waited for her to end work and we walked her to the train station, watched her went in. then....... we headed for DINNER at some steamboat shop. let me tell you, it was AWESOMELY DELICIOUS! i cant really express how good it was but it was GOOD thats all that i know of. after our sumptous and filling dinner we walked from chinatown downwards to central got a cupp of ice-cream and both shared it. sitting opposite clarke quay admiring the night scenes. then we headed home. I LOVE MAIPIG (=

MAIPIG trying to be funny , someone pls wake her up

SPASM

turning point

2008-06-16T00:35:00.000+08:00

;& this shall be my turning point

I'm truly sorry, I'm sorry for not cherishing all of you that have been caring and concerning for me all these while, I'm truly sorry. I know I haven't been a good daughter, a good friend and lastly a good person. I really hope that I'll be given a second chance to prove myself to you. Daddy, mummy and jiejie, I'm really sorry. I know that words can't express how regrettful I am but I just want you all to know that I'm going to change and be a better person.

On thursday night something REALLY bad happened, and I'm totally BLOWN away. It definately served as a wake-up call. A real turning point that I never expected to happen. I regretted doing this. I have always resisted doing it, and never ever given in to the temptations but why that night I did? Why couldn't I be more persistent? Why wasn't I more determined and clear-headed? Why did I went to do something that I clearly know was so so so harmful to me? Why was I so stupid? And let my family down again.

The moment my dad heard my call and the reason of the call, he was totally disappointed. I know, because I could hear his loud sigh and could feel the huge heart-breaking feeling in him. I'm sorry daddy. When the PO called upon me, and I followed him out and through the glass I saw daddy and mummy, my heart sank and fell. I saw my parents who are in their fifties coming all the way down to bring me home. At that point of time, I knew that i was breaking their hearts so much, since I was a child til now I've been such a rebellious kid. And I've never learn to cherish the people around me. Deep down in me, I knew that I love these two old folks so so much but why couldn't I just put my love into actions?

On the car, daddy was on the phone with uncle john and was talking about me. After some time, uncle john said he wanted to have a word with me. When I was on the line with him, O could feel how much he cared for me. He advised me on so many things and tried to console me and told me what was right and how I should handle it. He even said that if anything were to happen, and if i need to go for 1 year, and after I'm out, he'll bring me to migrate to other countries. Uncle john was saying ALL THESE to me. It was the first time I felt so close to him. Like a father, he's been there all these while. But I didnt feel it, I thought he had always been closer to jiejie.

When we reached home, jiejie talked to me after her bath, she was so upset and agitated. We started crying and yelling at me, I've realised my mistakes. She told me uncle john cried while telling her what happened to me. Why do I have to make everyone upset and worried for? Thes two women in my life have been people who've wastched me grow and love me more than anything or anyone else, but I've repeatedly hurt them over and over again.

You might be thinking so hard what I'm talking about. I'm sorry I'm just not saying what is it about. And the reason why I'm only blogging it now is because I couldn't bring myself to do this. I really couldn't, each time I thought to myself that it was time to blog and each time it'll just come to my mind how hard it'll be for me to do so. It's just taking so much of my courage and I'm so upset to talk about. I'm just hoping so hard and praying so hard that on the 26th everything will be ok, IO would tell me that I'll be given a second chance and just continue to study. Last but not least, I just want to apologise to my family and to everyone that loves me.

happy new year

2008-01-02T04:40:00.000+08:00

helllo~!
happy new year!
its 2008 and i hope everyone's happy and
have their new year resolutions in mind alrdy!

and i havent been blogging!
hahaha! well just didnt had the feeling of blogging
or rather being online. now now. i miss everyone!
i miss my gf dernise my loverrs and so much more that i
cant really recall to mention now haha!

christmas was not bad.. and i got a sweet tattoo.
on christmas eve.. rahhh yes dont get shocked..
its not airbrushed.. its tattooed.
if u wanna see it ask me the next time u see me. haha
enticing yea?
alright... i'll be back again.. miss you all!!